Unknowingly, long gone, far away.
A week more to my social studies and english national exams and yet..
I'm still hesitating to take a step futher. Even if it's just an inch, i panicked. I'm petrified, paranoid to disclose my darkest secret unintentionally.
I can't help being afraid. I dislike to show the frail side of me. But after knowing that you did not intend to accept my doings, my heart actually sank. It shows that i've been doing too many meaningless stuffs for you. I didn't know you're ready to take off to the climax. Never for once, you show a determination to do something right. Never. Sometimes i'm wondering if you're taking eveything for granted. You want freedom, but have you ever thought of how to even seal it? You're good in keeping things to yourself, you're even a professional in venting your frustations in any manner. You just care about yourself, you wouldn't care about other people around you. You wouldn't even know that you've actually hurt them deeply. I admire the way when you would care less about anything just to satisfy your wants instead of needs. I don't know when will you realise the horrible mistake that was fault 11 months ago on her. I just hope you'll know that time and tide waits for no man.
- gasp
Back to serious talk here. First thing first..
ANYONE WANTS TO DATE ME OUT ON THURSDAY FOR A MOVIE?! LOL.
I
need to watch "I love you, Beth Cooper" badly.
This blonde is effing hawt! : Hayden Panettiere
Secondly, i'll need Anu's composition sooooooooooooooooooooon before i'll get r.i.p during my english paper T_T
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMADD! NO CAKES, I'M SO SORRY. LOOOOOOOOOL. :D
First thing first. I just realised that almost 70% of the books i was so obsessed with actually had a small part of sexual contents LOL. Please don't judge me as a sicko or perverted slick. I'm none of both okay. Believe me or not, i didn't know that 90% of romance/family stories can lead to sexual stuffs. But.. So what!? I love the book man - The Duke & I very nice story of how a duke's father mistreated him as an idiotic mute toddler when he was only at the age of three. Hmm. I'm still thinking if i should go to the birthday party outing tmr, my schedule's dam tight until this coming sunday.. I've a fxxking long birthday list to cover lol. Damn it!!!!!!
Back to posting again babies! Can't wait for the dismissal counting down in 11 minutes time wooooohoo. Did anyone knows that i'm in high spirits nowadays? Hahaha. It might look fake in this post but trust me, i feel very intoxicated now. Damn. Looks like i'm gonna spend my off-work time to partehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Don't be jealous my kids (umairah, anu, farhanah & daniel) a little more older and you can be like me. 8D
Off to party with my mistresses -thumbsup-
How do you describe the word 'disappointment'?
Or maybe 'betrayal'?
Its irksome. Right now, i've got nothing to say anymore.
I'll take back whatever i've helped you to get. I didn't know you're so worse.. than a bitch. Really.
It has obviously proven your true colours and change. Its time that we'll end our close relaitonship. You're not the person that i've known anymore. You do not exist.
PS: I feel nothing but only a commandation to excel.
I freaking hate the way you show your weakness so easily.
I thought you are stronger than me but it appears that you're not. In fact, a whimper.
I'm starting to get annoyed and disgusted with how you're solving things. Your thoughts and resolutions are so naive.. or maybe beyond naive. Just how many times do you want to get hurt? Or does it feels good to get hurt by someone you love so deeply before? You suck. Seriously you suck. I don't mind if you'd changed because everyone do change eventually as in how you look, how do you feel towards somebody. You've got manipulated so easily by her obsessive look i bet.
I'm not suppose to hate or dislike anyone.. but you made me do so tonight. I really hate you alot now, Justin Lee Xing Hong. Your secret conversation with her better not be exposed or i'll definitely hate you for life. Effing bastard.
